My 2nd game ever was a Vic 2nd XI rep game. You've been around a while, what's the secret behind your shithouse efforts in the top grade? Can't make the step up? It's ok.
It's just like asking Sachin Tendulkar why his average was only 30.75 after the first 8 tests. The asnwer is - he played his 8th test at an age when some other test players take a nap in mommy's lap after finishing school homework, and dream about going to buy the first pair of gloves the next day.